Seedless-
Learn to speak your own name
Then maybe I can tell you mine
Breaking fists with walls
I capture skeletons in my eyes
And play pretend.
Courtney Roach
August 6, 2005
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Resolution-
Speaking through your hands holding your face
Your love has drifted past this place
Fingers in my throat
Flame in my heart
My scars are bleeding and staring
Bibles full of words lay themselves down in my mouth
My secrets stay secret
Courtney Roach
August 6, 2005
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Star-
Smoke drifts with kisses into my lungs
My death is your desire
I'm humored by her hands upon the ground
Wrapped within white sheets
My name is pure again.
Courtney Roach
August 6, 2005
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Insomnia-
My late nights are blamed on you
Dust my eyes, kill the lights
Swallowed by enchantment
The stains on the walls are dreams of you
And sometimes it's spotless
Beauty breaks me
Lying starry-eyed across the pavement
Heartless and comatose
Love me once and you're my habit
Read the humored script
Bleeding thighs, starving lies
My seams are torn tonight
You have your flaws and one too many
And smoke dries your heart out
Beauty breaks me
Lying starry-eyed across the pavement
Heartless and comatose
Love me once and you're my habit
Blink once and I may be gone.
Courtney Roach
August 10, 2005
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Eff-
Your smoke falls to the asphault
And your tears spill to the floor
Your heart has finally surrendered
The snow has fallen once upon your lips
You'll never go back.
Courtney Roach
August 11, 2005
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Serenading-
Sitting in the dark abyss of my shadow
Icicles reaching for your eyes
Hunger bathing your soul
I'm aching for your lips
But they're forbidden.
Courtney Roach
August 13, 2005
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Nightmares-
The world escapes my shut eyes
The crystals flutter to my feet
My empty mouth begs for forgiveness and I turn away
These moments last forever in our dreams.
Courtney Roach
August 13, 2005
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Metaphor-
I slam the door
Leaving creases in the wall
I bathed my smile
In something other than the sun
The mirror is shattered on the floor
Broken glass bleeding my feet
I await a new face.
Courtney Roach
August 13, 2005
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We All Fall Down-
My eyes are dry today
The floor is wet with sky
I danced within it
And felt sadness as the day became dark.
Courtney Roach
August 13, 2005
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Ever After-
Sleepless nights were thoughts of you
I roll my eyes in hopes of seeing something happy
Your cynical stares haunt me forever.
Courtney Roach
August 13, 2005
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Parenthesis-
The hours repeat themselves
I'm pacing with the ghosts
All eyes are on me
I fake a smile
It's empty like my heart
My skin is thinning
I don't notice
The hours repeat themselves.
Courtney Roach
August 13, 2005
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Cinderella's Ashes-
The last page of an empty book
I'm reaching
And everything escapes my presence.
Courtney Roach
August 13, 2005
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Abyss-
Stars fill my mouth
Scissors tear my lips
I'm robbed of all thoughts
My breath is smudged across my body
Everyone dies alone.
Courtney Roach
August 13, 2005
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Tumor-
My face is flushed with red
Your eyes gaze upon me
The floor sticks to my feet
Your voice rings through my mind.
Courtney Roach
August 13, 2005
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Flutter-
The neon drifts from your eyes
I whisper self destruction into my skin
I bandage all my wounds and become no one
The pulse of my fingertips
And the edge of my lips
Bleed from your memory.
Courtney Roach
August 14, 2005
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Born Again-
Watching flowers wilt
Swallowing this poison
I am suffocating
Lock my head in darkness
Stutter to an endless sigh
Lie down
Watch my lipstick fade to grey
I am crawling through these flames
The sky is falling.
Courtney Roach
August 15, 2005
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Killer-
Your powdered words scratch my eyes
Feed me lies
Faintly fall into your arms
Cut my bitter smile
Leave me drowning in denial.
Courtney Roach
August 16-18, 2005
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Unwilling-
Starving for anything other than your lips
Your hands across my skin
You win
You're my nightmare
Not tonight.
Courtney Roach
August 20, 2005
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Black-
Staring at the shadows
Lingering beside me
The glass walls all around me
Stifle all my cries
I want out
Of this life
All I want
Is to be happy.
Courtney Roach
August 21, 2005
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Vintage-
I hear laughter passing through the walls
And realize I'm not alone
All eyes on me
Tears smeared across my face
My darkest moments are kept secret within us
Blood stained upon my skin
You let me lose my mind.
Courtney Roach
August 21, 2005
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Twitch-
Staying sober in your eyes
Staring at the scars upon my thighs
I break my skin for you
I'm looking thin for you
You've never cried for me
I shed every last tear for you.
Courtney Roach
August 27, 2005
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Speed-
Tie me to your lips
And bleed me
Give me my desire
Cure the numbness in my skin
Take the numbness from my mind
Turn away
Steal the color from my eyes
Hang my body with your lies
You broke me with one touch
Pushed me into darkness
And I blame myself.
Courtney Roach
August 27, 2005
