Zen Chicken-
I can wait no longer
For things to get easier
I feel nothing
It looks so simple
From the outside
But my eyes are dying
My life is fading
And simple I remain
Digging deep into my soul
Blinding myself with pain
No tears today
Breathe - I wouldn't notice
Bleed me - I wouldn't feel it
But don't stop.
Courtney Roach
June 1, 2005
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Goddess Laughter Love-
Love me
Again you wait
You're the child within my heart
Laughter is your middle name
You're the blisters in my brain
Let's not play these games
I'm hungry for sanity
You're the goddess in my mouth
Just let me speak.
Courtney Roach
June 1, 2005
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Lost In Euphoria-
There's blood in my mouth
There's salt in my wounds
And little fairies dance across my palm
The wind has broken me
And brought me to the ground
And you kiss me
Just one more day, baby
And then I'll leave you, maybe
I'm lost in euphoria
You're drowning me in my own tears
I'm alive and unhappy
I'm not missed and faking it
You think my goodbye will end an ellipses
Sunshine peels away my skin
And unfolds the truth
And I go
Just one more day, baby
And then I'll leave you, maybe
I'm lost in euphoria
You're drowning me in my own tears.
Courtney Roach
June 4, 2005
-Mel-
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Dancing With The Past-
I've passed through elegance
Did I pass your test?
I've given up
I've fallen apart
And no one's seen through my eyes
You're falling asleep in my memory
And you fade.
Courtney Roach
June 4, 2005
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Miss Immortal-
The letters have been sent
I'm hanging up
This makes you Miss Immortal
Write this sing along
The kisses have been blown
I'm letting go
Tell your mother she can't love you anymore
Watch her burn.
Courtney Roach
June 6, 2005
-Mel-
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Running On Stilettos-
Dancing with your eyes
Tangled in your lies
Drowning in your heart
Let me fall apart
Sleeping in swift shadows
Running on stilettos
Chaperone my feeling
Hanging from the ceiling
Lying all alone, soaking up my passion
I've no more passion for you.
Courtney Roach
June 6, 2005
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Toxic-
You saw yourself last night
You watched the beauty wash away
I pity you
Your essence is still alive
Inhaling toxic perfumes
Your grave awaits your presence.
Courtney Roach
June 7, 2005
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Life Goes On-
Happy days are so cliché
There's no such thing
Love dies
We cry
Pick up where we left off
Go on
Tears gone
So long.
Courtney Roach
June 8, 2005
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Gothic Fiends-
I'm so numb
Cut me deeper than before
Pain is bliss
Tears won't fall, I promise you
Blood tastes sweet upon my lips
Just like you once did
My gothic fiends fall dead, quite like myself
I won't survive.
Courtney Roach
June 8, 2005
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Heartbroken-
Swimming in deep passion brought to me by fate
Crying at the sight of these unfamiliar faces
My blood has broken and I broke your heart
The stars will not lead me home again.
Courtney Roach
June 8, 2005
-Mel-
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Gloom Pillows-
Sink softly in my tears
Pain is breaking my heart
Pillows drowned in water, censoring my sight
Shadows sleeping in my head
Yet I am alone.
Courtney Roach
June 8, 2005
-Mel-
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Awaken-
Awaken
Shaken by the rapid thunder
Of my beating heart
Smell the beauty in every storm
And the gray will slowly fade
These tears aren't wet
My hopes were met
And I'm not scared.
Courtney Roach
June 10, 2005
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Bitter Sweet-
This baptism falls upon me so bravely
You fall so gently
This sweet simplicity adds a tender breeze
Call it bitter sweet.
Courtney Roach
June 10, 2005
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Knock On Wood-
Whisper happy endings through my veins
I can't complain
I love you still
Just on a different path
No more lies or screams into the gloom pillows of dooms
So, you're not just one simple memory
You're a hundred smiles, laughs and tears
Locked within my soul
You'll go down with me
You'll sleep in the grave with me
And you changed me
With one kiss.
Courtney Roach
June 10, 2005
-Mel-
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Love's Bulimia-
Out you go
And dancing is your loss
And crying is your past
You're tasteless
You tear apart your smile
And it's bloody
And it's beautiful
And you promised me
But you think promises were meant to be broken
It's the key
It's the cure you've been searching for you're whole life
And it's love
And it's life's only defense.
Courtney Roach
June 12, 2005
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Scared Sometimes-
I'm in too deep
I'm breathless
The wind sweeps the tears right out of me
Once you're crushed
You're boneless
All the beauty in the world leaves you empty
Tragedy strikes my skin
My sight is bloodshot
All the beauty in the world leaves you lonely
I'm in too deep.
Courtney Roach
June 12, 2005
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Lies Are Goodbyes-
Should I love you?
If you say yes I shall go
Your hand full of jewels
I will kiss it
My heart knows they're lies
The ruby in your lips is what did it
My tears don't let me love.
Courtney Roach
June 13, 2005
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Twice Purple-
The sky is purple, your beating heart oblivious
The patter of the rain, the soft anemic sighs
Infesting every streetlight are the spirits of the night
There is no fear of being alone.
Courtney Roach
June 16, 2005
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Game-
You are my rock
My lit eyes in darkness
A song shall sing itself to you
And I shall bathe in light
Radiating from another day
Another night
I cannot be alone
Shaking and breaking
Again
You cannot help me
Nor could you ever
It was just a game we played.
Courtney Roach
June 20, 2005
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Skipping Stones-
I broke your heart, yet you still love me
All the bitter loss in the world has no effect
Skipping stones in our tears
My rusty heart cannot bear love
My dusty eyes are swimming in the real world
I am dragging my feet.
Courtney Roach
June 20, 2005
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Thinner-
Blankly, we stare
Through each other's eyes, full of truth
Our bodies are bare
I'm only half there
You offered to hold my hand
My head shakes in the darkness
My bones let me go
I am thinning out and I am running away
How can I fit, my body so ugly and thin?
My heart aches for anything
Just to know I'm alive.
Courtney Roach
June 21, 2005
June 20, 2005
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Dirt-
You wear me like a smile, empty and red
Pain is my broken heart, harmless and dead
I pushed through the dirt
It didn't work
It only hurts worse
The sunshine in my eyes is long gone.
Courtney Roach
June 20, 2005
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Sweet Tooth-
You drown in your sweet tooth
Wanting magic and mystery
Lost in my soul
Escaping the truth.
Courtney Roach
June 21, 2005
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Bliss-
Excuse me,
I'm too busy bleeding
Not a far cry from death
And I miss happiness
Fake smiles are bliss
Emptiness is my only reality.
Courtney Roach
June 20, 2005
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Rainbow-
Your rainbow colored eyes carry a smile
A strange little smile full of broken frowns
And now I know the truth
You never lied
I never smiled
Can you help me?
Courtney Roach
June 23, 2005
-Mel-
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Happy-
Drinking all your pain away
Won't make the new day any better
Maybe I was wrong to let you go
But I'll never look back
Not for anything that could have made me happy.
Courtney Roach
June 23, 2005
-Mel-
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Frown-
I swallowed my sorrow without a second thought
I forgot your eyes and the power they held
I tore my heart out for you and I'd do it again
If only we could both stop crying
And bathe our wounds in something other than each other's blood
I smell the ticking of the clock around my wrist
And I frown.
Courtney Roach
June 23, 2005
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Antidote-
Alcohol and blood make for a delicious antidote
Beauty sleep never comes as you wake with an ache
Slicing at your heart makes for the perfect mistake
They say your tears are worthless; your struggle isn't enough
Night after night, your routing of happiness fades.
Courtney Roach
June 23, 2005
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Four Senses-
Step inside the shallow blood upon your skin
Just one blink and I am gone
Just one sigh and you are out of breath
You see stars that cry for you
Screaming love into my ear
Twilight fades and I remain deaf.
Courtney Roach
June 25, 2005
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Cut-
Cut my scars
Cut the skin beneath the bone
Watch my bare legs shine with ruby-colored serenity
Jaw-dropped
Fallen tears
I wear this blood as a jewel around my bony finger
A little more hatred fills my lungs
I am stained forever with my mistake.
Courtney Roach
June 30, 2005
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Safety-
I think that resistance is wearing off
I think your safety seal is broken
And my tears are heavy on my heart
When the edge tears at my skin
I am withering into moonlight
Watch me die with the night.
Courtney Roach
June 30, 2005
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Overboard-
Darkness hides behind the black drapes in your eyes
And in your head I walk above you
You're the trigger on the gun that is pointed at my heart
I shall be blind to all that is alive inside the lines
You stayed
I forgave
Blowing kisses to the ash beneath my feet.
Courtney Roach
June 30, 2005
